I have had a number of posts here I know. But I am now experiencing Anticipatory Grief in putting Duffy down. I can't focus as I feel so concerned about when is the right time. I have support group and all of that so I am sure I will be fine. He eats, pees uncontrollably and doesn't look great. He clearly has some Liver issue as his liver enzymes are bad. Its not cushings, UTI or diabetes but he is drinking lots of water and peeing. Vet says they can do MRI or whatever...but why bother as he is 13 1/2.
QUESTION: Will putting him down start the healing process for me? Has anyone had "Anticipatory Grief"? Does putting him down make things a bit better or just start a new phase of misery as the survivor in the relationship (LOL).....
I am coming for experiences of others in this regard.
So sorry
First off, I am so sorry to hear that Duffy isn't doing well. In my opinion, this will never get any easier of a decision. If you weight Duffys quality of life, would you say it's poor? That's when you know he would be much happier in a sense at rainbow bridge. I have had to make this decision once in my lifetime. I will never forget it nor the experience. There is NEVER a good time to say goodbye to our fur babies. I will say that 13.5 years is an AMAZING run. Bulldog correct? I just have to ask as that it just a long haul for a bully but GREAT! Back to the question at hand, the grieving process is different for everyone. It sounds like you are already grieving in a way. Just know we hear your pain in your heart and wish you nothing but the best. Support groups help a ton!
Christiane Stine
mom to Oliver
We had a 6 year old boy...
named Oscar who had lymphoma a few years ago, and even though he was going through chemo, we knew his days were numbered. I tried to spend as much time as I could with him and memorize every single thing that I loved about him. When he stopped loving his food and had trouble getting a good breath, we knew it was time and the oncologist agreed. The hardest thing I've ever done, but also the kindest thing for him. My grieving for him started the day he was diagnosed and I still have sadness when I think of him. It's hard to know exactly when the time is right.
I am also facing this same issue with my beloved German Shepard.
I watch with pain and sadness as she has mostly lost her ability to walk with her hind end. Her eyes tell me she wants to go down the hill to the barn and do chores with me still, but her ability to do so is limited at this point. I have decided in my heart that when the day comes that Millie is unable to chore with me, she will be at her most miserable place in life and I will let her go. And now I am crying as I type, but I don't want her to watch from a pad on the living room floor while I go out the back door to the barn, it will hurt our hearts together and she just won't understand it. Since I found her, she has stayed by my side through it all. She is my dog, my love, and such a good and sweet baby girl. But if she can't walk, it is not fair to her to keep her just for my own sake of being able to see her in the house. Her life will be nothing, she hates being left behind. So I will do what I have to do, and she won't be in either pain or fear any longer.
i can only say that you are definitely not alone in your pain and sadness. I will mourn Millie for years to come, as she is the very first dog in my life that chose me alone for her human. She has been my best friend and my closest compadre for almost 6 years, she was a stray when I picked her up, and we estimated her age at 8-9 years old then. She has lived a loved last few years, that's all I can do for her. Your boy will know you love him when you let him rest from the pain and difficulty he is in. He will know....
Amy and Sophia
I have just been through this
3 months ago I lost my beloved Mr. Higgins. Although it was without prior notice, i.e. ill one day, put down the next, I have to say however long the notice is, you will be in the same amout of grief. Yes, it is terrible and I am still grieving badly. I adopted a bulldog/cavalier mix on March 2/15 which was unplanned but happened for a reason I suppose. He is not Mr. Higgins and in no way makes up for the loss. He makes me very happy and I am consumed with training him as he was a shelter dog and had absolutely no previous training of any kind. I have dedicated myself to him. I am his 3rd home in 17 months.I have had 2 previous bulldogs and I just thought I would rescue a mixed breed thinking the wider genetic pool might spare me some health issues. He is keeping me busy but I still cry over Mr. Higgins. Got my bully at 8 weeks, and like others on this board, looked after him to the gold standard of care every minute of his life and he constantly heard me say to him "you are such a good boy, mom`s boy." "I love you baby." "You are such a cute bully." Daily and even more often than that. Many times a day. So I knew he knew he was loved abundantly which is helping me a lot.
When we get pets we sign on for heartache. In every case, especially with a bulldog. They are so very special and require so much care from us that life suddenly without one is agonizing.
I hope whenever you make the difficult decision you will be sure your bully felt totally loved which helped me so much.
All the best to you, your family and beloved bulldog.
Deborah Watson and my bully mix "Ridley"